With all the sress of life it is not a waste of time for you to  withdraw into your special place and forget for a moment.Go....do what ever you want to do.....if you need to come back then comeback,  whether you want to  go on a holiday, if money is a concern go walk in the park.Look up the trees, if you're lucky, you'll  see Mr and Mrs Squirrel scampering up and down the trunk searching for food. If you're unlucky you might see something else dangling on the branches. Don't slither back to your room, walk away , there's the playground, go sit on the swing. Have fun, launch yourself high, feel the wind on your face, close your eyes.Take a deep breath and relax and walk away if a ten year old child complain to her mother that an aunty is taking up their swing.It's ok...just walk away ...At least you did somthing